My first Halloween bash at a club was dope! haha, well, we went to MOS for the halloween party. It was okay, but it was so crowded no space to dance! :( Anyways, i'll let the pictures do the talking!


Before heading to Mos, yes, im an angel. Baby isnt dressed up cause we're afraid that he would die of heat stroke from the costume.










In mos, before the drinking starts!












thats all for now! will be back to upload more pictures!

HAPPY 40TH MONTHSARY BABY!

I LOVE YOU!

Ji

Sigh, its already 4:39 AM... Yes AM! and i am still up even though i have to get up at 10 for my O'level Science Practical which is at 2 but i have to be there by 1230. I seriously wonder why do we have to report so early? Are we just going to sit down and do nothing? It certainly doesnt help that i will be alone among other unknown people. Gosh, i will feel weird.

I've been tossing and turning in bed for the past 3 hours. I thought Lavender aromatherapy is suppose to calm a person's nerve down and helps one sleep better? Apparently not. Instead i feel tensed, anxious and im wide awake. Sigh, what is wrong with my biological clock?

Hmmm, i've been a very naughty girl. I havent been to school even though im required to go to school. Somehow i dont feel the drive to go? I rather stay home and do my own revision. Mind you, i bought $37 worth of past o'level papers. Its really frustrating. I dont want to go to school, but i'll end up feeling guilty. It doesnt help that i would have to go to school next week also. Why wont they let us off already? Remedial? Remedial my ass. More like focusing on your favourite students. I doubt i will be going to school though, but on second thought, maybe i will cause daddy is coming home. I do miss my daddy, but i dread him being home.

I cant wait for the stinking O's to be over. I need a break. Oh look, its already 5 minutes to 5. Wonderful, and im not the least bit tired. I'll be having 2 weeks of exams and then, FREEDOM! BUT, although i would to party and play the whole 6 mths, i think i might have to work. Sigh.

Bahhh, in retrospect, im glad that the O's are coming. It means that the time i have in CHEC is getting lesser(YAY!!!!!!), i dont have to hear any bitchings about me, i can stay home go out or do whatever i like without feeling guilty and i dont have to face or explain myself to any higher authority not related to me. Ahh well, O levels, i will embrace you with open arms. Please do be nice and be easy alright?

Daddy is coming home on the 23rd. Daddy's birthday is on the 24th, which is also Hari Raya. Hmmm, Ashley suggested going out with mummy first and then celebrating daddy's birthday at night. But i feel guilty for leaving daddy home alone in the morning and afternoon.

I think i blogged enough gibberish. I shall force myself to sleep once again.
Tata for now!

Yours Truly,
Tiara.

Sitting down at the basement of T15; also known appropriately as the Study Area. And mind you, it's not comfy air-conditioned, but FANS-operated. Not that I mind or anything. I'm just here to slack off my time while blogging and surfing sites.

But before I start off with anything long and draggy, I just wanted to put this OUT LOUD.

Baby, I Love You.

And so, I shall continue my thoughts.

Its not really that easy this semester. Yes I agree I've early classes which means early dismissals as well. Though it also means waking early and driving through the damn ECP morning jam with ERP which cost a phreaking bomb la. But those are all besides the point.

What I mean to express, is that I'm totally stressed up. And when I think about it, I ask myself, "What stress?"

My mind could only numbly answer, "Stress? You're just running away from responsibilities that you ought to fulfil, dreams that must be filled. Compare your stress to your parents, compare it to those who wish to have a life like yours. You call yourself stressed? I wonder how stressed you can be."

Lets touch on the topic of 'Normal'.
I believe I've been taking most things for granted; people and relationships for granted. Look at me. What can you see? I think it's just an 'Ah-Sia Kia" or perhaps a 'Spoiled-brat'. And I do not deny entirely. In fact, I feel rather angry, with myself for allowing every mistake, every cock-up, every shit and *ucked up thing that has happened. I won't quote exactly to you dear reader, but I'm sure for the select few (if not then the sole most important person in my life) will know what I'm talking about.
Then here comes the point of taking things for granted; A good life where I have anything and everything I want, and a relationship that is sheer perfection to the point of fairy-tale/love-story like. With the first being, wanting more with what good things I already have. I mean instead of treasuring what's in front of me, I'm expecting more? That's really not being a very nice person, right? (Think : SPOILED BRAT / 'AH SIA-KIA') So the only solution to this first and foremost problem, is this; To look for a job and hence knowing all-over the value of money and not to that things I have in life (materially of course) for granted. With the first being solved (verba- I mean literally), let us come to the latter. Taking relationships for granted; Relationships are difficult to build yet crumbles so easily. Life. But anyways let us go on with this problem. There is someone whom I love so so much (I'm sure you know who you are ;] ) but yet take for granted and even with something so punishable, I made it worse by harbouring to actions so wrongful of which I should be burned alive on the stake for. Instead of leaving, she stayed. And loved me still with an open heart. I'm grateful for that. Very grateful, albeit at the same time guilty. It has also come to my realisation that I should really treasure her, for good. Losing her... is not an option. I hope it never happens.

**Dear reader, if you are feeling lost in my sentences, I totally understand, and hope you will understand that my thoughts are in a mess, somehow. So please share the same understanding and try to bear with me for the rest of the post. Thank you :] -Ji


Anyways I doubt there's more to post right now, its about time I head for class. Lunch-time, the place is getting rather crowded. It sucks if there were anyone reading this while I'm typing. Invasion of privacy? My ass la. If it were, would I be typing this entry and letting everyone view? Dumb la, just dumb.

This is JJ signing off on a wonderful Tuesday, and here's to wishing you a cheery 2nd day of the week.


Sincerely yours,
Ji

Everyone, Meet Oreo. Our darling Chihuahua.
Oreo at just 2 mths.













Oreo, meet Everyone.
Oreo at 4 mths!
She's still small. Hahaaha.












Im so gonna fail prelims! YAY!

Already received MinDef letter to apply for medical checkup. Well.. this is inevitable that I have to serve National Service. Damn NS which will waste 2 years of life, refraining me from seeing my baby everyday. Wonder if anything will change, or will everything be the same still. I know it's just NS, and to me, I can't wait to get in. I just don't wanna leave my baby unattended. It sucks.

Hrmm... wonder which medical group will I be in.. Hopefully Pes A. Haha. Make the best of time I suppose. Go Guards la.. Or Commandos.. Preferably Air Force. I really don't mind signing on to Air Force if I can be a Co-Pilot. I don't wanna be the Pilot. You may ask why. Let me tell you why. The Pilot is only in charge of flying the craft and only his reflexes are counted on. But the CO, uses his brain. He controls all weapons systems and communications. Rather, the Co-Pilot is the brain, and the Pilot is merely the limbs. Heh. Interesting way to put it aye? Well, no offense to any Pilots reading this. Treasure your Co la. You need them.

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I love you baby.. I think not seeing you everyday will kill me. It will. Maybe I can install some GPRS camera (read: 3G) and see you everyday whenever I want to. Hehe.. Just a thought, a thought.

Ji